There are themes that keep coming up this week that have got me thinking. The themes are... What are you living for? What makes you happy? What is your purpose? Why do you do what you do? Now these might be questions that you feel you have a confident answer to, and I have felt this way to. As this subject of purpose and creating my life has come up over this past week in numerous forms, from conference calls, to books, to conversations with my mentor, to just a feeling inside of me, I start to wonder.
I was out to dinner the other day with some family. The conversation started off basic, "How have you been?" "What sounds good for dinner"? etc. Basically anything that wasn't confrontational and that broke the ice between us all at dinner. From there it became more direct and almost in a form of interrogation. Questions were directed towards the younger people at the table, what are your plans, goals? Basically insinuating that what these kids are doing is not of worth or value, that they needed to think further about the real world, or about getting a stable 9-5 job with solid benefits and a 401K. Now I get it, this is the way that we all have been taught. You go to school, get your degree, work a 9-5 job 40 hours a week whether you like it or not. Thats the way its always been, and thats the way it will always be. NOT FOR ME.
This way of thinking to me is completely false. For some people thats what they'll do and they may love it! Good for them! But who has the right to tell someone what there life should look like? More often than not the ones saying "You can't do it" or "When are you going to get a better job", etc are unfulfilled in their own lives. Its easy to take the attention off of you and try to dictate how anothers life will go. I have learned over this past year and especially in this past week that NOONE creates your life expect yourself. YOU are in control of you.
Going back to the themes that have been coming up all week its important to ask yourself. What am I living for? What makes me happy? What is my purpose? What do I want to do? Many people think that asking yourself, "What do I want to do?" doesn't work. That the world doesn't work that way. Im telling you now it does work that way! I would be saddened to give up my entire life and every thing that I was designed to do, to give up my purpose on this earth, so that I could live the "normal, solid" life. Which in some definitions can mean the "unfulfilled, pushing a boulder up hill" life.
If you feel like your pushing a boulder up hill every day you wake up to go to your job or to live your usual life..please for the sake of your sanity STOP!
I have to re-focus myself every single day on what my plan and purpose is. Like almost every one I had a work resume, BUT I threw it away and deleted it from my computer. Working a job and being employed by another person is not my calling. There is no person on the face of the planet that is going to tell me what my life should be like, and what I need to be doing. I have felt empowered in this fact: I own and control my own life. I have made a vow to myself, to my family, and to anyone who knows me on a personal level, that I will live every day in my purpose, my calling, and what fulfills my soul. For me, music and a passion for changing peoples lives through music is what I live for, its what my purpose is. I am designed to do what I do, and any other life path would be going against my design, and thats not good for anyone! ;)
I know this has been a rambling entry, but I feel passionate about doing what you feel and what you know in your heart. There will always be judgment, and people looking down their nose at you for stepping out and doing something against the norm, something different. One of my favorite quotes is from Steve Jobs, "The ones that are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones that do." Doesn't make you so crazy anymore when your changing the world and walking in your purpose does it?